Parfa – “Prisoner”

I am a prisoner in my own head
The Voices hold me captive

Bound and bundled in chains like a mummified corpse with my mind as the casket
I’ve grown tired of having a conversation with a mirror that never talks back

I wish the walls had ears so they could hear my lonesome cry every night as I soak my pillow in tears in this room full of shadows

I wish the hills had eyes so they could chaperon my days when I’m alone in my crowded mind
overflowing with thoughts of the bliss and peace of oblivion like a chaotic waterfall

The feeling knots my insides like rope around a tree
Because even in the middle of the crowd I feel alone
I scan through the throng of bodies with eagle eyes
Desperately searching for a lifeline
Someone or something
Anything to make me feel less afraid
Less inclined to snuff out my dying flickers of hope and life

Any sign of light that would light up the end of this dark and murky tunnel that I'm stuck in

Something to break these chains and set me free
Someone to give me a reason to smile
Anything to help me breathe the calm air of peace
For my only wish is to be free of myself

And once again
Live

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